Friday, November 23, 2007,6:00 PM
BROKEN INTO TWO <3
you know, this is a new blog. i should be talking about how peaceful sg is or whatever. but all i can think of is how i got slapped in the face today.
literally. i was at the fire ant-infested playground below my block today and all i can think of is how my crush looked playing soccer a stone's throw away.
all the while this question was playing in my head repeatedly since i came back disgruntled: WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T I ASK TO JOIN THEM?!?!?!?!
stupid right????
and answering it was: BECAUSE THEY'RE BETTER AT SOCCER, STUPID!!!
i know, it sounds like i have a mini parliamentary debate in my head.
all the while i was managing to pay attention to the guy in front nattering on about maple and stupid freaking zakum.
if they want to fight zakum so much, go ahead and freaking do it!!!!!
anyway, i was wondering why not join the OTHER group of soccer guys there (i know, it's a mini soccer field here) when poosh! the guy i like (lets just call him A) and his gang goes over to join that group!!!!!
and whee out goes my resolves. score in the garbage.
then my group of five goes to play catching in the waiting lot (of all places!!!) and what should i hear but a member of A's group shouting that he doesn't like me. (or such).
whoopee.
did i need to hear that?
answer: NO!
pui! i solemnly resolve not to think about A the next moment before seeing the ball fly out and bounce near me and see him go out to retrieve. pooing! another resolve in a plastic bag thrown away.
haiiz.
life is certainly unfair.
i hope i'll get over A soon. like REALLY soon? because i'm going to sec 1 next year and hopefully some guys will light my intrigue. hopefully.
it's gonna be hard though, since the void deck is both mine and A's second home. YIKES!
i don't even know why i like him. it's like hilary duff's love just is. it just is. i dunno why. you want to know why? go wake doctor love or something.
i can't believe it. they're still downstairs. i can hear the ball thudding.
i cant even think when i hear that ball.
CRAP I'M FAR GONE.
